I found an awesome site. It's called Life Church TV.
I found an awesome site. It's called Life Church TV. The sermons the pastor has been giving could have been aimed directly at me. Just feeling so horrible about myself in my sin. But you know, that's a good thing. So horrible about myself, I become totally disfunctional. That's good, though.
As I continue to regain myself, I'm awestruck at how awesome God is. I had started to become desensitized to my sins, but by reading about people who had done very bad things that I would never do and never have - things I'm repulsed by - in the news, that helped make me afraid of not having God. How is it people can carry on in their sins and not even flinch? Conversely, I start falling apart real bad. I could even read about something that repulses me and become very worried that people might think of me as the same kind of person. At the same time, it can upset me when I see people who have done things I never have and never would be able to live with themselves and carry on. It intrigues me to no end how some people can feel good about themselves when I feel horrible that I didn't make a full decade of celibacy. It's like God instilled this gigantic fear of sin in me as I was starting to lose Him. That's good. God is everything. Without God, I have nothing. With God, I have everything.
I remember one of my favorite renditions of Amazing Grace was that performed by Leann Rimes. I remember the first time I ever saw this I would well up with tears. I'm getting back to that point. I can feel God's spirit with me again. It feels great. Just like I had a few years ago. I'm dating God again.
Mark served honorably for four years on active duty in the Marine Corps infantry, and was a Libertarian endorsed candidate for a municipal office in 2002. He re-enlisted in the ARNG in 2006 because he was depressed/at times SI without the military. He has held the NFA Series 3 license (futures and futures options broker) which he did a voluntary withdrawal on because he couldn't in good conscience sell managed futures since firms would do better to hire an in-house trader to trade a proprietary account with a discount broker, which he outlined in his well-written withdrawal request. Since the year 2000, he has spent much of his free time reading the great minds of the Austrian School of economics, such as Murray Rothbard, Henry Hazlitt, Ludwig von Mises, et al.